February 3, 2012

The moment I heard “Video Games”, I was hooked. It was the first one I heard and I couldn’t get enough. “Born to Die” is a new main stay in my playlist.


Don’t let her failed “Saturday Night Live” performances fool you; Lana Del Rey is one to watch in 2012. The singer has been the center of controversy with people questioning her plump lips to her “manufactured” image and history. The hype over Lana Del Rey was overwhelming.

Media outlets like Pitchfork, Rolling Stone, Stereogum and many more pimped her for months only to frantically type hypocritical reviews that tore the album apart. But Lana Del Rey’s sophomore effort, Born To Die (released on Jan. 30) holds its own without their approval.

Unlike other aforementioned outlets that are so transfixed on the persona, this review focuses on the MUSIC and nothing else.

Here we go.

The self-proclaimed “gangsta Nancy Sinatra” has a sultry 50s vamp vibe mixed with an enigmatic aura that is reflected in her songs. This album serves as a film noir score written by the bone-chilling femme fatale. It opens up…

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My Amber Mind

December 1, 2011

My blogs name can be considered an excuse for the length of time that I don’t write anything.

Amber is considered a gem by many but it is after all fossilized tree sap. My mind can run like tree sap at any given time but it can crystallize at some point. Thoughts pour and then harden, much like what I write.

I also can’t seem to find the courage to write everything I think. I guess that springs from my lack of confidence when trying to really explain to a person what I think.

Hopefully I can manage to write more soon as I am planning to write yet again another story.

‘Til the next time.

Unexpected Easter Gift

April 24, 2011

Protacio and Virginia, January 21, 1967

Just because of another termite attack, in our ceiling this time, a few prized family possessions unexpectedly cropped up, two bags of pictures! I found my Lolo and Lola Gonzales’ wedding pictures and some other extremely old pictures. Now I wish that my wedding Dress would look like a cross between my Mother’s gown and Lola Gonzales’ gown.

The unexpectedness of this event after a hairsplitting termite hunt brings to mind how there is always a cloud with a silver lining.

This also is a beautiful touch to a very special occasion that is Easter.

Happy Easter everyone!

Today, March 2, 2011

March 2, 2011

Today, March 2, 2011 was our Initial meeting for our Case Study.

Today, March 2, 2011 we opened our selves to our partners for the case study.

Today, March 2, 2011 I relived my memories of pain, humiliation, loss, regret, happiness, sadness, mania, disillusionment, anger, pity, paranoia, weirdness and love.

Today, March 2, 2011 D got to know a shard of the hidden me.

Today, March 2, 2011 I thank D.

Today, March 2, 2011 my boyfriend and I had a fight.

Today, March 2, 2011 is our Tenth month anniversary together.

Today, March 2, 2011 we are still inseparable.

Today, March 2, 2011 we know we will still love each other for who we are.

Today, March 2, 2011 I thank you my love.


February 15, 2011

The real Equation:
Fresh Banana+Flour+Sugar=Maruya

Our Equation:
Fried Banana+Flour+Arnibal=a whole lot of Mess

Belated Happy Valentine’s.

A Rose

February 8, 2011

It’s beauty has gone in a moment of eternity but not forgotten. Eternity will see beauty bloom again









Photo: stolen from a Friend

For Kat

February 8, 2011

The love of a Father for his Daughter will never dim though time may take one away. Eternity will see you together again.

Strength of a Child

February 5, 2011

For a child to accept that her eyes will be taken away after seeing the one person she idolizes signifies the innocent beauty as seen from a loving family. Only a well-cared for child can accept losing something so vital that others take for granted, the sense of sight.

Changing Summers…a thought

January 24, 2011

I thought that since everyone is leaving I could write something about change. I still don’t have much to work on though.

Just Another Problem…

January 19, 2011

Will it really hurt if I let someone I love go even if we never really were together? What right do I have anyway? It’s not like he will ever love me the way I loved him.

On January 23 Pi will be leaving. He’s going to Canada. I don’t want him to go but I don’t really have the right to tell him not to go. We’re not even close. He and I were classmates before but we never became fast friends. So why do I feel as if him leaving will kill me?

I’m just nuts I guess. Or is it even after years and in spite of having a boyfriend I’m still in love with him. I love Cross but I can’t forget Pi. I guess the line “first love never dies” applies to me.

I guess I have a sort of attachment problem. I don’t understand how it works yet since we still haven’t tackled Abnormal Psychology but I’ve heard of cases. I believe I get too attached to people and things. I keep a lot of things, including trash, that remind me of the special people, events and other stuff I’ve seen, ate, experienced and whatever. I don’t understand why.

But whether I’m in love (still) or just merely attached, it kills me to think that Pi is leaving. It’s stupid I know, but that’s how I fell. I cry when I remember but what the heck can I do?

I’m hopeless.